Look at me now

who i was then is not who i am now

so please, don't expect me to be who i was

take me for who i am

everyday i learn new things and find new meaning

and slowly but surely, i redefine myself

perfecting the right

reworking the wrong

i am a constant work in progress

who i am now

is not who i will be tomorrow

so please don't judge me be who i was

focus on the present

find out who i am now

and walk with me as i become who i will be 

- Kay Tabz

better to try and fall short than never to try at all because you think its impossible...

So,i came across that statement as i was reading something i wrote over a year ago and funny enough, its relevant to my life right now... oh how life works in mysterious ways! gives you what you need EXACTLY when you need it!

I think its a statement that applies to many different situations, but in my life i think it all comes down to one thing: when i reflect on my life one day, i want to look back and have no regrets. one might ask, is this even possible? so i shall explain what i mean... i want to be able to look back and know that in all the life situations i was faced with, whatever challenge it was, i did all that i could and i was not limited by my own inhibitions... i want to be able to look back and say i seized every opportunity that was presented to me. i want to be able to say i made the most of my friendships and my relationships. i don't want to look back and have those 'what if' moments, those 'maybe i should have' moments. but is this realistic? is it possible to apply this to all aspects of my life? 

Maybe i am just a dreamer, but i would rather try and fall short than never try at all because i think its impossible...

Be grateful

Be grateful for each waking moment that you have. life is too short and you never know when your last moment will be. live your life such that you know that if your life were to end right now you are going to end up where you want to be,where you have been striving to be all your life.

i know they say live each day like its your last, so embrace that in a positive manner. do all the good that you can in that day to all the people that you can and at the end of the day, look back and say today was a good day, i gave the best of me at everything i did today. Easier said than done right? but if you live everyday in this manner then you will have no reason to worry about your life or where you will end up in your afer-life, in my opinion at least

one step at a time, one day at a time, but above all, be grateful for each new sunrise that you see, and what better way to show the Creater how grateful you are than to be the best that you can be in that day!

Lost and Found

Your love came searching for me
When my soul wandered astray
Because of You i'm here today
In the midst of confusion
You wiped those tears off of my face
And led me to a better place

You loved me when my heart was in
In the lost and found
You did, you did, you did
You loved me
You loved me when my heart was in
In the lost and found
You claimed me when my heart was in
In the lost and found

I wonder...

If i were to be someone else looking into my life, would i be proud of the person that i am? they say the true measure of a man is what he would do if he knew he would never get caught, its in what he does behind closed doors, all alone... and only God and the individual really know what happens... so would i be proud of what i do when i am alone if i were to look into my life from the eyes of someone else? would i even do what i do behind closed doors if i knew someone else could see me??

if my thoughts could be amplified for the whole world to hear, would i be proud of me? would i want the whole world to really know what i think and what i say to myself? would this world still be the same place if everyone could tell what the next person was thinking? i think not...

why then do we go around saying things that are not a true reflection of our thoughts, why then do we do things that we do not want the rest of the world to see and know about? after all it is written that on Judgement Day, everything that happened in secret shall be revealed... why then do we keep secrets if they are going to be revealed in the end?

well i guess everything has its repercussions and if people were brutally honest, there would be other issues to deal with! but wouldn't it be better? wouldn't that take away a lot of the conflict and love-hate relationships that are a result of people not being honest to each other?

so how do we get past all the dishonesty and two-facedness that is all around? i really wonder and i guess i will wonder for a long time, but i guess what really matters and what we should all understand and remember is that one day, one fine day everything shall be revealed...

Don't give up on me yet...

I am not the wisest of all mankind
Neither am i the c;everest
But all i know is that i am trying my best to be the best version of me
So please, don't give up on me yet.

I am trying as hard as i can!
I am faced with challenges along the way
But all i know is that i am trying my best to overcome them
So please, don't give up on me yet.

I don't know what the future holds
Or what i will face in tomorrow
But all i know is that i will try my best not to let you down
So please, don't give up on me yet.

Best believe...

I really thought this week was gonna be the most hectic week of my academic life, and i had pronounced it the worst week of my UCT life... but i guess life has a way of sorting itself out! well its still the most hectic week of my academic life, but it is not a bad week at all... so much good has happened in the last 12 hours, i could live on the high from these incidences for the rest of the week!!

guess dreams do come true at some point and what we hope and wish for comes through and it happens at an appointed time! i think all the things that have happened in the past 12 hours have happened now for a specific reason! if these things had happened last week or the week before, i wouldn't have appreciated them the way i appreciate them right now! but because i am going through a hectic time, the simplest things have happened and they have taken me from the depths of misery to the heights of pure happiness!

i now truly believe that things happens for a reason and they happen when they are meant to... no matter how hard we try and wish for things to happen in our own time, our Father in heaven knows why he does not grant these things in our time, but in His own time... so best believe that God has got your back and He knows what he's planning for you, and he surely knows when these things are to happen... so when things dont seem to be going your way, or when the future looks really dark, hang tight, it will all come together in the end!

i still have a hectic week, i still have lots to do, but i'm gonna do it with a happy smile and not the gloomy frown i've had for the past two days

so hang tight, sunshine is coming!! Best believe...